Poem, What am I holding back

What am I holding back
What do I fear
What do I believe My Heart cannot bear
Am I afraid of dispair
Of being hurt
Being rejected by one my Heart holds dear

Can I bear this longing
Could I bear the pain
Can I bear the heartache
Can I dive into my feelings
To embrace Life just at it is

Heart,
Are you big enough to hold the loss
Are you big enough to hold all sadness and tears

What do I lose by holding back
I forget to be Real
To express what I feel
To let my Inner Being be Heard
To Dance and Live with my fullest Expression

Just embrace all fear
And Dive into the Infinite Ocean

Feels like a tidal wave that can't be stopped
Just want to surrender to its flow
To surf on the waves
Bow down humbly to Her Magnificence
And let Her carry me into the Mystery of the Beloved
Let Her carry me until she gently kisses the shore
Gently embraces, caresses and strokes each grain of sand
Uniting in Deep Heartfelt Intimacy

/Anders Branderud, 26/10-2015 (If you like this, then you you may want to read my other poems as well: stillnesspoems.blogspot.com )

Poem - Deep Secret of Tears

This beautiful sadness
This beautiful Heart
This Tender Heart
This Beautiful feeling of Tears
Being Kind to yourself
Everything is okay.
Aliveness
Heartfulness
Healing

You can open up
It is Safe Here
You are Beloved
You can be Who you are

Gently stroking
Caressing this Sensitive Organ of Aliveness
Loving the sadness
It feels so Alive
The encompassing, kind Heart allows all sadness
I can be with your Tender Sensitivity

Photo, poetry, Anders Branderud, october 2015

Poem - Beautiful Heart

Poem - Beautiful Heart

You are so beautiful.

You are softening up.
Letting the many frozen layers melt away.

Like layers of snow and ice

Exposed to the Radiant Rays of the Shining Sun

Uncovering Your beautiful and vulnerable Heart

The intimacy with the Heart

Is like Sweet nectar pouring down

Filling and satiating the Soul

This is a poem i wrote a few days ago in England on a retreat. Recently coming home from Sweden after two wonderful weeks of retreat - one weekend with Diamond Approach (https://www.ridhwan.org/) in Germany and one with Jan Day ( http://www.janday.com/workshops.php?wkshopID=25 ) in England. So grateful to this weeks; and the ongoing experience of connecting more deeply with myself and others.

Poem, Rivers of life

This is so touching
This meeting
Connecting heart to heart
Very deeply, very intimatly

This stillness is like this gravity force
Pulling me deeper, deeper inside
So very touched
So attracted
So touched deep within
So deeply connected
This deeply touching meeting
This deeply looking into the eyes

Essence uniting with itself
Eyes connect
Hearts connect
So deeply.
So profoundly.
This vibrant aliveness
Profound Love

Stillness pulls me
Stillness guides me

Oh this depth

Heart calling out from the depth of her being
Expressing her gratitude for being
For being a vessel of Life
For the rivers of never ending living water
existence tells You:

Come to me if you thirst.
Drink me
And this stream will bubble up in your stomach
It will just stream through all your body.
Stream of refreshing peace and Love
Forever anew, moment by moment.

It will lead you deeper, and deeper, and deeper and deeper.

Deep into silence
Deep into the wonders of life.
Silence of Heart
Silence of Being
Silence of truly seeing
Existence for what it is
Silence calls you
Softly, gently

May your ears be attentive to her soft and still voice
Listen, and join her in Stillness

She calls you into this place
Where attachments drops
Where this true connection can takes place.
Where the ego loses its power
Outpowered by this unconditional, All embracing
Deeply touching love.