Poem, Insecurity

Poetical drafts...

This insecurity
that I really am feeling..
that really is touching me....
that really flows over me......

I embrace it
I accept it
I live with it
I allow it to flow
Allow it to be felt
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What is this attachment?
What do I really want?
I just want to live..
Just want to be real
Moment  by Moment
Movement By Movement
Meetings, Moments..All the Time
All part of this beautiful orchestra
This beautiful Harmony
If I live in an attachment
If I am somewhere else.
Then I miss the divine play.
This divine orchestra.
A Hug. A very touching Hug
Another Touching Hug. Moment by Moment
So touching when it is fully lived and experienced.

So am I fully Here?
Or do I drift away to somewhere far away in a distant land.
The dream land of how I dream that life should unfold
Or do I just dare to be real.
To constantly be Here in every single Moment.
To dare to be real and to feel in every Moment.
To Truly Meet.
To be fully aware in each Meeting
To actively Connect Heart to Heart
Soul to Soul.

This attachment is trying to grab me.
To hold me.
To make me live life in a way that is not authentic.
It makes me more uncomfortable.
Things that should have been said are avoided...

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So I really love meeting you.
Connecting
Just being. Just flowing.
Then comes attachments that wants to hold on
To Experience it again.
Hindering from just Flowing in the Now
And with attachments follows insecurity.
Insecurities of what you may think.
Insecurities about thhe relationship.
Where it will lead?
Maybe some fear of being rejected
This fear that has been a companion throughout most of the life.
Meeting without pressures
Without demands
This embracing quality
of flaws and everything else that we so often reject
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and you will see and you will observe
and just by Being and observing,
the structures that held their grip of you will disappear and vanish into Nothingness.