Poetical reflections about intimate relationship, intimacy and loss

Poetical reflections about intimate relationship, intimacy and loss

I feel that in an intimate partnership relationship I would allow my partner

All freedom to express herself

To be The Beautiful Spirit she is

To grow in her Heart’s pace and space

To allow her Inner Rose to flourish in all her fragrances, colors and forms

To be with her expressions of her wildness, silence, grief and despair

Doubt, fear, anger, pain, Love, gratitude, separation and intimacy

To allow her richness, colors, forms, fragrances and depth of her Being to unfold

Provide a Loving and Accepting Space where she can Express her Wild Heart and roar

Where she in freedom can Dance her Heart’s unique dance

And join the moon, Sun and the stars

In their Luminous Free and Sparkling Dance

And if she would feel her calling to leave our Dance

And depart from our attuned, sacred and intimate Union

I would release her

And wish her well on her glorious and adventurous journey

And the Love and the connection

The fragrance, flavors, flowers and touch

The beauty, richness and intimacy

The Longing and Warmth of Heart would stay in my Heart

And maybe feelings of abandonment, rejection, grief and Loss would appear

Like children who wants to be sensed, felt, heard and hearted by my Heart

And I would embrace my Heart
And try to be with Her and embrace Her and Love her

And feel with Her and be so close to Her

And provide Her a Loving and Accepting Space

And gently Listen to her Pace

And tenderly Look into Her Gentle Gaze

Telling me Lovingly that Everything is Okay

I would hear her tender and warm whisper

That She is Vast as the Wide Ocean

And that the Universe is just a Refection

Of her Infinite Depth and Being

And that I never lost my Heart’s Beloved

Because in Heart there is no distance

In Heart there is no Loss

And Love changes colors and shapes, forms and fragrances

In all Her Infinite and Loving expressions

The Heart holds and Loves all the canvases, shapes and colors on the drawing of Life

I would feel the pain that was triggered from the losses of my Life that I had not been ready to be with until now

That my Heart protected me from in her Infinite Kindness and Love

And I would whisper to her:
I want to feel it now

I am ready to be with you in all your pain
I love you and I want to be with you – always

I want to be with you in Everything that you go through

I am not looking for a narcissistic love

I want to sacredly love you

Like the Holy Rose you are

Feel the beauty of You

Passionately feel you in all your fragrances

Lovingly be with not only Your softness and sensitivity

But also the thorns

And explore the Mystery and the Beauty

Dive into the mystery and find out that

They all are embraced by your Deep Love

And to rest in Your vastness

In midst of both Intensity and Silence

I would feel my Beloved Heart’s Loving embrace

Her warmth stroking all my body

Firmly and gently holding me

Providing a soft and safe space for the weary, adventurous and daring journeyer 

/Anders Branderud, 2015-11-17